Listening

Tonight I sit listening as a soft cool breeze is blowing through the balcony I call our porch.The sun has set and the night air is filled with a cacophony of sounds.There is the  never ending traffic on the highway just outside the gate, insects chirping, voices loud and plentiful up and down the high way as people are walking even in the dark. And lastly, a harmony of young male voices in a mild reggae rhythm coming from the church, lifting praise to the one who made it all! 

I so long to understand the words of their songs! We don't really understand how important communication is until there is difficulty with it. I so need to communicate! Until I can speak the language I feel as if my hands are tied and I am useless.

This week Daniel, bless his heart brought a young lady to me with a baby who was obviously a newborn. The child was approximately 5 lbs. was wheezing slightly and had a fever. There was so much information I needed from the mother but they spoke no Angle (English) and my creole is very limited. Daniel tries but his English is worse than my creole. All I could do was give amoxicillin and Tylenol drops. I did have the instructions written where she could understand them. I pray God heals that child.

I said I feel useless. I do realize if I were not here the child would not have had access to any medication. His mother had no money. I just want to be able to do more. 

The teams keep us busy when they are here but when they are not, I need to occupy my time with people, not just tasks. I want to be involved! Feelings of inadequacy are creeping in again. I know it is in these times the Lord shows Himself strong and mighty! He is reminding me it is His work here not mine. I must focus right now on Proverbs 3:5 "trust in the Lord with all your heart, acknowledge Him in all my ways and He will direct my path." 

Tonight I sit listening.